A Birthday Letter
38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:38-39
Today marks the day where you started your epic adventure here on Earth. As I crested the Rim on my way to work this morning, I was caught off-guard at the similarities of this morning's sunrise to the one I experienced that morning in the hospital bed awaiting your arrival. The sun was just rising over the Wind River Range this morning, but the morning I got to hold you the sun was just creeping over the belly of the Sleeping Indian. I recalled the mist dancing on the tall grasses that had just been kissed with dew. I recall the cool crisp morning of orange and pink skies. So much peace in the anticipation of holding a child I had waited 9 months to . A new day rising that would change the course of my life.
There are so many moments that I cherish in my heart as I held you close for three and a half years. You were the vessel God used to teach me (and others) some very important, life-changing values. With our eyes slowly opened, many of us were able to witness the manifestation of God's goodness through you!
I thank God every day for your time with us as there are many days where I wonder why God chose me to be your mother? The only conclusion I can come to is that you were meant to make an impact in our circle. God knew that I would be a sucker for hope in the Trisomy 18 journey. And, because God knows me very, very well, He knew that when I found hope I wouldn't be able to keep it quiet. I think God knew that I would say "yes" to be your voice and that together we would be a powerhouse for God to work through; to disperse hope, to share compassion, to be light.
Sister, selfishly I pray everyday that you are flying near our family. But I know you are a mighty angel with a sword and you are fighting battles in the unseen. And I know you're doing it with joy just like you completed your assignment down here so gracefully.
So, baby girl, as we celebrate your birthday today I'm going to remember those tender moments in the hospital rooms where I saw God's provision manifested so clearly. I'm going to remember the moments of joy like the afternoon on the ferris wheel at the county fair and I'm going to remember the moments of peace right down to the very last hour.
Today, there will be a celebration to honor your existence because for three and a half years you were here with us, you impacted us, you changed our perspectives, and you live in our hearts.
I love you and can't wait to see you again. What a glorious day that will be! Happy Birthday, Tessa.